HELPLESS…

I can’t help but feel helpless when struck with one of Delise’s temper tantrums. It is an everyday occurrence that stops all time as we know it and takes (sometimes) hours to get through. Today I am at a loss…

We all want our kids to be “normal,” and fit in…you know, be “good.” What does that REALLY look like?

As I watch Delise in one of her fits at a Help Me Grow evaluation, my heart breaks for this little girl, it breaks for her body and her spirit that are out of control. I stay strong but truthfully I want to hang my head and sob. Some days I am just at a loss…

“Do this and the tantrums will stop.”

“Stay consistent and the tantrums will stop.”

“Once she is more verbal the tantrums will stop.”

I just want my baby girl to experience low anxiety for once…just once. She is constantly seeking control in Every.Single.Aspect of her tiny little life. Honestly it just keeps getting worse. My heart is so heavy and I’m just sad. Sad for Delise that she struggles with this ailment, sad for Annora to have to witness one of Delise’s extreme tantrums, sad that Ben and I are at a loss, sad that she can’t be “fixed.”

For now, we seek help from developmental pediatricians, Occupational Therapists, Child Psychologists, Help Me Grow, and the list goes on…

I will be sure to keep you posted…

Our sweet baby girl...

Our sweet baby girl…

 

 


6 Comments

Chrissy · October 14, 2016 at 12:03 am

Always praying for all of your family and I will say some extras for Delise.

    Mary Bockert · October 19, 2016 at 7:42 pm

    Thank you my friend!

Dawson · October 14, 2016 at 12:12 am

Remember stay strong in your belief that the almighty God we’ll see this through. You and Ben are extreme examples of strength, let that stress shine through to her. My prayers are with the both of you as you struggle through this difficult time!

Dawson · October 14, 2016 at 12:13 am

Strength!

Amanda · October 14, 2016 at 12:16 am

As terrible as it was to witness, I’m thankful that she had one of her tantrums for the specialists to see first-hand. Hopefully they were able to more fully understand the heart of what is going on.

Caroline Herron · October 14, 2016 at 3:08 am

I’m so sorry to hear what you’re going through. I know that I’m many miles away, but know that I’m in your corner. If you ever need anything or just need to talk, don’t hesitate to contact me. Parenting is so much harder than I ever imagined. I will pray for you and your family.

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